Season 5, Episode 9: ‘Out, OK!?’
Almost everyone is carrying some kind of emotional burden on themselves. Most of us have learned to move on, if only to move on. What happens when people let go and take a chance? How do you feel when you tell that person you love? When do you decide to leave everything behind for a chance to do something different? Life is what happens.
“Out, OK!?” In the final episode of “Insecure”, several characters reveal what they are doing inside. Lawrence confesses that he is in love with Issa. Tiffany says goodbye to her friends in Los Angeles to start a new journey with her family in Colorado. Molly and Taurean cross the line from work friends and casual hookups to anything else.
While everyone is making big moves, Issa is still pretty grounded. She hasn’t decided yet whether she’s going to offer MBW or take her chances with Crenshaun. She is looking at the apartment with Nathan but has not signed the lease yet. Looks like he’s in the range of his own making. They’re leaving all resolutions for the final episode, and it’s tempting.
We know that she still has some sort of feelings for Lawrence, as she hasn’t been able to stop thinking about him since she found out that she had moved back to Los Angeles. We know she wanted to reach out for closure until Molly stopped her.
At Tiffany and Derek’s goodbye party, Nathan and Lawrence meet for the first time. There is clear tension. The two go back and forth over whether there is better barbecue in Los Angeles or Houston. This is a short argument that is more about the ego. It’s Lawrence sticking his chest to the man Issa plans to move in with.
Lawrence didn’t go to the party alone—he showed up with Eliza and Condola. When Condola walks into the kitchen to grab a bottle for Eliza, she bumps into Molly, Kelly, Tiffany, and possibly the weirdest of all, Issa. But the girls are cordial: Issa greets Eliza with Condola and Condola greets her on her latest community outing. Lawrence and Condola seemed like a blended family, but when they arrived at the party, Condola saw Lawrence staring at Issa with his own eyes. She seemed disappointed, so I’m not calling Condola, Lawrence, and Elijah Smith right now.
Molly and Taurean eat the food without informing anyone. (Molly eventually confesses to the girls.) It seems to be just what the doctor ordered – I don’t see how they would have let their guard down with each other. When they do, it’s beautiful. Taurean becomes soft; Molly gets a little goofy and honest. After secretly bingeing hors d’oeuvres, they find themselves inside a pantry.
“Part of me worries about how much fun I’m having with you,” she tells him. “It’s easy and feels real natural, and it scares me.”
“Why?” Taurean asks.
“Because at some point when people get closer, I mess things up,” she replies grimly.
“With me, it’s the opposite,” he assures her. “At first I hated you, but now I’m starting to like you. I’m not going to get tired of you, Molly,” then he kisses her and they reconnect.
I’m not mad at this for Molly—the Taurean sent her wine and postmates after a very hard day, which is the modern equivalent of a sonnet and flowers. They may have some trouble with their partners, but I think they can make it work if Molly can find a way to love herself.
At the end of the party, things eventually come to a head between Lawrence and Nathan, who fall into a kind of spat by Nathan after Nathan professes his love for Issa. Issa repeatedly tells Lawrence to talk to her a second time but Lawrence can’t contain herself. He puts it all out.
“When you ended things, I get it,” he tells her. “But things are different now; I am different now. I would hate to leave here tonight knowing I didn’t say something I should have done, like I didn’t fight hard enough for you. ,
“I don’t know if the fight even matters,” she replies.
After Taurean breaks up Lawrence and Nathan’s confrontation, Nathan yells at Issa. She reaches for his arm and he turns away from her, asking him to give her a minute to calm down. It didn’t feel right that he yelled at her, no matter how hot it was. It was as if in that moment, he stopped being the woman he loved; She was also the opposition.
Here’s hoping Issa stops playing Beach Road soon.